You're Not forever

I want someone 
To stop me as I leave
Pull me back and read the heart on my sleeve

You may make me smile
But deep down I know
That if I had one foot out the door
You put your hand on my back
And lead me off the floor
You'd shut the door behind me and never see the ocean waves falling in the darkness below my eyes
I could yell and plea for you to ask for me to stay

Each day
I'll find myself outside the door
Phone in hand
Wishing maybe
you'd think to
 call

I Am Here

Every room I step into, drag myself accross
With such a lackluster attitude and sullen expression
In every room I lose a little more
Faith and hope
But every time, it takes me as a surprise and I can't help but look around
No matter where I go, I still smell you
Everything about you
The tangy, sweetness of the inscence you burn
And the spice of your cologne
I still remeber your sweet smile
And the feeling of your warm breath on my cheek

I feel like I slipped and fell on a slab of concrete
A painful throbbing everytime I blink
My bodys going numb, and my thoughts keep escaping
I've lost all energy to even speak

There are lights flashing all around
and I'm searching for the one with my name
Bright against the night sky
Screaming to the world "I am here"

Mine

The word that keeps playing over in my mind

Dancing on my lips and tickling my tongue

Our hands reaching out to each other like the sunlight falling gently upon the daffodils of early spring

Your touch makes me bloom and you gently pluck my petals and kiss my fingers

The warmth of your love against the soft palm of my hand is enough to make the chilling rain seem worthwhile

The empty days seem much brighter

And the fear of losing you more real

So I’ll lick your lips if you lick mine

I’ll slowly let these letters tumble from my mind

And late in the night I promise you’re the only one I’ll crave

Your eyes will be the only ones to make me cave

Slowly, ever so slowly I’ll completely succumb to the power your voice has over me

You Don't Want Me

The darkness is smothering me  
It's eating me whole
But you're too busy twiddling your thumbs and trying to play your xbox with your toes to notice

I'm laying here as the vultures pick at my skin and meat
Birds with beaks of stone indulge on my flesh and dine
My arms are numb and stuck at my side one above my head
There's nothing I can do but breathe and that's barely happening
 I'm so afraid to reach out because what if they're real and decide to attack 

I watch my self become a skeleton as they peck through my muscle and veins sopping up even my blood
Leaving behind no trace I was ever here except for the dust from my bones that has been ignored so long

And I'm just destined to be stuck here watching you not give a damn
Lost in my yearning for freedom
Wishing you'd carry me away
 But there are only few good days when you come sit by my side

I'm really no prize for you just a settling with a maniac til something better strolls along with a bodacious body and a high pitched laugh
And I'm trying to run away in hopes you'll stop me
But you never do

I'm begging for attention
On my knees for you to care
 Your words say one thing
 But your actions say another
As if I was meant to read them so I wouldn't know the truth

I'm only temporary

And you'll never love me like I love you, never love me

You won't even try or fight or try or fight
I'm beaten, damned
I'm  dust now
And I can't will myself to move

So maybe it's my fault you'd rather dig in your nose than look at me, all my fault
Because I'm a big heap of mess consumed by the lightly lit room laying in my bed at night
Unable to sleep because the tears make me blind

And the birds are feasting, feasting
And I'm quietly weeping, weeping
Wishing, wishing I wasn't so lost in my mind.